Homeschooling Has Groomed Me

Look at God, I am completing my twenty-sixth year of homeschooling! I am forever grateful to the Lord for choosing me for such as task as this. Though it has not been easy, it has been worth it, for ME. God has been my source of wisdom and strength along this journey. He knows the plans he has for them and me. Not only does God give me wisdom regarding our children. As I seek Him daily to train His children, He ministers to my heart and sharpens me. He gives me wisdom regarding myself. Homeschooling has groomed me to be a better woman.

I have become more self-aware. Daily, as I interact with our children, I see myself, I hear myself, I feel all the emotions that I experience throughout the day and I am presented with who I am. This has taught me to be more patient. Though I like to think I was a patient mama when I began my journey of motherhood, the patience I need to have daily as a homeschool mama is a whole different level. It is that of being patient with myself and with God. I have learned to be honest about my own weaknesses and my need for the Lord throughout the day. I now consider how I feel (my thoughts, wants, needs, frustrations, fears, doubts etc.) instead of immediately being responsive to my emotions. Such patience leads me to pause when needed, go the bathroom or bedroom to repent or cry out to the Lord to refresh my heart and mind. I am more capable of embracing the tasks of the day with our children as I continue to grow in patience.

Through the good days and the bad days, I have learned to humble myself before them. Being with them daily has given me the opportunity to grow in relationship with each one individually. I consider it a blessing to homeschool our children, even after all these years. Whether I am learning along side them or apologizing to them, humility has been a character that I continue to develop daily.

Forgiveness is another character that I found that I needed to grow in . As I have learned to accept my own humanity and present myself with more realistic expectations as a woman, wife, homeschool mama etc. and forgive myself, I have become more gracious and forgiving of others including our children. Communication with God has been key to growing in forgiveness. I talk to the Lord candidly about my feelings and I listen…to me and for Him. Then, I talk to our children, sharing with them without resentment, unconditionally.

As a homeschool family, we grow each day, individually, me included. Homeschooling has been refining me for many years, in ways that I can’t overlook. I am so grateful for this experience with our children and with God.